Yes, It’s true. I can’t hide anymore… I’m seeing another woman! This might be a strange thing to hear from me, so let me explain!
I have been going through a major catharsis over the last month and a half, which is why I’ve been quite silent. I had to cancel the last Moon Temple due to a huge process that I was navigating through (and still going through the motions)
About 2 weeks ago I was closely examining my hands. All the crevices and patterns etched into my flesh. All the stories my palms tell me, of holding on, of letting go… Caressing, digging deep in the Earth, wandering hands immersed in tactile pleasures. As I began to honour the journey my hands have taken, I started to see the effects of mortality creep in. I was struck by a new sense of awe for my body as my skin starts to wrinkle with stories and dreams. I breathed deeply and started to feel a new sense of Self bloom. With the recognition of imminent change, by heart fluttered with both a wonderful sense of anticipation and fear.
The fear that I speak of is a good fear… it’s the kind of feeling when you are on the threshold of such a dramatic shift, a quantum leap in conscious awareness and personal growth…and you are in the moment of complete choice… in the director’s chair so to speak, and you know that once you make that final decision to jump, there is no turning back to the old ways of being. I felt like it was time to put on my “Big Girl panties!” and get the job done. The archetype of the Wise Woman calls me forward constantly… calls me up on my shit and lifts many veils from cast illusions so that the clear, embodied way through it all, feels like a deep ritual of initiation.
I was on the threshold of something undefined and I knew that I would never be the same again…
I felt the fear… took a deep breath, made a choice to align my internal compass firmly to this dreaming of my most potent expression of Self, and
Into the known, unknown scape of who I am to be and always have been.
This new ‘wombman’ I am seeing is me. Matured, deeply embodied in her most potent essence and anchored in a deep sense of belonging to something profound and meaningful. Something bigger. This woman has intimidated me for many years as I did not have the vocabulary to understand her deep love and commitment to navigating the internal waters in a quest of discovering Truth and Wisdom. I was afraid of the responsibilities that innately come with embodying this maturity of wombman… Of reclaiming all facets of myself… from all timelines… Consciously making firm and compassionate choices to guide me clearly on my path, shaped from my deep intuition and sensitivities to the subtle energies…
I am now learning to clearly and authentically express myself, without the need to play the role of the ‘Peace-Keeper’
There is a more detailed story to all of this, which I will share at a later date. I am aware that this may come across as quite cryptic, but it is all I can do for dialogue in this present moment.